by drummerphil » Thu Jun 08, 2006 3:56 am
I have been given 6-12 months to live and even though I’ve had 15 full radiotherapy treatments on my Brain,which have shrank the cancer,I’ve been told today that even if the whole thing disappears from view I still have it because metastatic brain cancer is a b@stard and stays in the brain ready to grow again.Radiotherapy should basically help with the pain and hopefully help my other symptoms like my walking problems,mouth problems,hearing problems etc.Incidently all these other problems have been blamed on the brain cancer because the brain can shut down and mess with anything it wants too as its our computer and cancer there can cause untold problems.
I will die from this,could be tomorrow,could be 10 years from now everyday I have to battle and pray I can win this.Its the worst cancer you can have because with the brain you have no idea whats next.Over the last year my emotions have been in turmoil,over the last 8 weeks I have been a complete wreck.Lando thanks for coming to see me mate I needed that hour to snap me out of the chronic depression I’m in. If only for an hour you’re a star.
I lie in this bed and worry about everything Karen,the Kids,Cancer,debt we have accumulated with me being off work so long,the mortgage you name it,I worry about it.Karen tells me off and tells me to concentrate on getting well but its hard too,when losing your house,car etc could happen because Karen has had to finish work too to be my carer.We will probably end up in some council run disabled bungalow,but that hurts me because Karens had our house 15 years and I’ve been there 6 and I feel right guilty I’m putting her through this,she is a very special lady and I love her dearly
my reason for living
Bob Paisley : "Still we've had the hard times too - one year we finished second."
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