by BringBackTiti » Tue Aug 16, 2005 9:16 am
Chelsea captain John Terry has admitted he is dreading returning to Anfield in October for the first time since his side were defeated in last season's Champions League semi-final.
Terry admits he still feels the pain of that memorable Anfield occasion when Luis Garcia's goal sent the Londoners crashing out of the competition and booked the Reds a place in Istanbul.
Chelsea will return to Liverpool on October 2nd and Terry admits he's dreading the prospect of walking back into the away dressing room - the scene of so many tears back in May.
"Going back to the dressing room after that game was the lowest I have felt in football," said Terry. "I know when I walk in there next time, when we play Liverpool in October, it's all going to come flooding back and I'm already dreading that.
"I was distraught after the game. I didn't know what to do with myself. What I couldn't quite comprehend was that for the second year in succession, we had lost a Champions League semi we were supposed to win.
"For the second year in succession we had got so close to the final, the match that is the Holy Grail for every professional footballer, and then we had blown it.
"I wanted to run straight back down the tunnel when the final whistle went. But I went up to Stevie Gerrard and Jamie Carragher and told them: "Go and lift it now. Go and lift it for yourself and for your club." It was hard because a big part of me just wanted to get back to the dressing room away from the cameras and the eyes of the crowd and just wallow in my despair.
"When you have got grown men on the pitch crying because they have just lost something they have worked so hard for, the rawness of that can be quite shocking. William Gallas was beside himself with despair. A few of us were.
"When I heard the final whistle, I broke down. I was crying. People were saying to me that it wasn't our year and our chance would come.
"I sat there in the dressing room that night with a towel over my head, just crying. Nobody wanted to move from their seat. We sat there for an age.
"No one wanted to look up, speak, move, to get up to get showered or even wanted to get changed. It was an hour and a half before the lads were out of the dressing room."
Terry has revealed Chelsea were ultra confident of beating a team they were more than 30 points ahead of in the league before kick-off, but they hadn't reckoned on a packed Anfield crowd playing a crucial role in the evening.
"The manager wrote 33 in big red ink on the board in the dressing room - the points difference between the teams," he said.
"It was the first thing we saw as we walked in. I looked at it. No way will we lose this game tonight, I thought.
"But the Liverpool fans that night were amazing. I have never heard anything like it before and I don't think I ever will again.
"I walked out into that cauldron and heard that singing and saw that passion. The hairs on my arms were standing up. Even when they scored so early through Luis Garcia there was plenty of time.
"But at 80 minutes I started to panic and when I saw the clock going to 88 minutes, my eyes started filling up with tears.
"When Eidur Gudjohnsen's shot somehow went out into touch in the last minute of injury time I can't explain quite how I felt. It was like everything went from my body. We had had one more chance. This was it. And then it was all gone in a split second."
''I talk about the table. We need a leg, so I have bought a leg.'' Rafa Benitez