Thanks for the support lads it does mean a lot.
A small update since yesterday, I got up yesterday morning and went into work and had to come home. I discovered another small lump on the opposite side of my neck yesterday morning, hence me writing what I did yesterday. My head was a mess.
A couple of months ago I started to get (quite severe at times) back ache however have still felt pretty normal excluding that. Then last night I woke up twice. My back ache was probably more painful than when I had a small break in my foot in November on a larger scale. This morning after an absolutely fantastic massage
the pain has moved from my back to my should/top of my arm and quite frankly I'm in constant agony. I am dosed up on paracetomol, Ibuprofen and tramadol but the pain is still there.
I have an appointment later with the surgeon and am hopeful myself... or my missus (she's a pharmascist) can talk the doctor into prescribing me morphine to get me through till i have the operation and some of the pressure is relieved. I will try and post a picture or two to show what I have if anyone is interested?
The other thing that is making this extremely difficult for me at the moment is my girl lost her mother to bowl cancer in 2002. This is extremely difficult for her to talk about still and I can't begin to imagine whats going through her head.
For some reason she loves me (punching well above my weight), but on a serious note, I can't imagine how hard this is for her. I'm more worried about the effects this could have on her than anything it can do to me. The thought of hurting her in this way terrifies the life out of me.
I do believe I've got cancer, not due to what I've read, but more so what the doctors have said to me and also from the results of the CT scan and X-Ray. It seems very much like they're just waiting for the opp to tell me exactly what kind. The only illness they mentioned to me was Cancer they did not say it could be anything else and their wording was such that I believe they already "have an idea" of what it is. The fact its in my chest and there are numourous lymph glands that have swollen only leave me with that real possiblity.
Will post later on to update on what the surgeon says. Thanks again for the support lads.
Stu.