by bigmick » Wed Jan 09, 2008 11:21 am
Strange I was a sixty a day man and gave up with the help of the patches. I actually gave up before Christmas (October I think) four years ago and then I was gagging for a fag on New Year. Feck it I thought and started again. Thing was, I just didn't really enjoy it as much as I had before I stopped when I went back on 'em. Don't know why or whether it was 'cos I'd built it up in my head so much how fecking lovely they were and how much I fancied one or what, it was just kind of going through the motions. So I told everyone i was going to give em up again, and I'm sure everyone thought "yeah course you are Mick" but I did. January 16th was me fitst day without fags and I haven't had one since. I won't either, I'm done with all that now. Great while it lasted, but I'm done with it. It don't bother me at all if people smoke at my table or whatever either. I used to love me fags, so fair play to em.
It's not easy at first Lynds, but you've already done the hardest two days of all. Tell that gnawing basterd fecking feeling in the back of your mind that you're gonna stop for six weeks, if you still want a fag then, then start again. Count down the days until six weeks is up so you can have another ciggie. I'm telling you though, after about four it's job done. Just occasionally you'll get that little tap on the shoulder off your demon, but you can feck him off no bother.
"se e in una bottigla ed e bianco, e latte".